This is the article that was published in the Vinita Daily Journal about Dad's Suicide. My heart is aching so much. I have really missed my dad and I was very upset with him because he never met his great grandsons. They would have worshipped my dad! Even though my dad was abusive toward me and my mom throughout my childhood, I still wanted him to just be MY DAD! He was an awesome grandpa to my son when he was little. And I really dont know why we quit talking besides his very extremely jealous wife. Like I was going to take something away from her and her son! I didnt want anything but my father. I hope she is happy and sleeps well at night knowing how much she destroyed his first family and his brothers. I cant believe that even in his death it was like a burden to them that they could not even have memorial services for him nor even printed an obituary to highlight some things in his life! But I guess she wasnt around when all these things happened in his life and made him the happiest!
Dad even though I didnt get to see you before you passed, I am sorry that we didnt speak much except when we saw each other and "SHE" wasnt around and you actually was allowed to speak to me. It was always like nothing was wrong and that we had just seen each other all the time. Like no time had passed. It is really weighing on me heavily that I know I will never get to see you again and that you will never get to see Heath or Hunter or Drake!
I have missed you so much over these years and throughout the years, I had mailed you pictures of Heath and his kids, but I am guessing you probably never got those pictures.
Since you didnt get a proper BURIAL, MEMORIAL SERVICE or even an OBITUARY from your current family, an OBITUARY was put in the Miami News Record to highlight some of the things that we know did make you happy thoughout your life.
I just want to say Dad, I am Sorry that you felt you had to take your own life. I wish I had known that things were this bad. I would have tried my best to help you. I just want you to know that I have always loved you and tried so hard to reconcile with you over the years. I never wanted anything from you, i just wanted YOU!
Here is what your obituary said in the Miami News Record. Rest in Peace Dad, apparently you felt this was the only way to reach that goal.
Byron “Butch” Eugene Knox
Butch Knox took his own life on
Sunday, February 17, 2013 at his home north of Vinita, Oklahoma on South 4450
Road. Mr. Knox was born September 25,
1948 to Howard and Leona “Teny” Knox. He
was a resident of Commerce Oklahoma while growing up and lived in Miami, until
his second marriage and moved to Vinita, Oklahoma.
Butch married Linda “Duncan”
Turner Smith and they had a child together, Shannon “Knox” White and then he
married his second wife and they have a son together. Butch attended Commerce schools as a child
and was a musician in his younger years.
He was in a band with Ace Moreland, Max Lee and Boyd Vanover and played
at numerous places in the area, he also as a rock musician toured Rock Away
Beach with St. John and the Apostles. He
also loved to hunt and fish and did so pretty much his whole life.
Butch had various jobs throughout
his lifetime, he worked for Hormel Packing Plant, Eagle Picher and Inter-Tribal
Council and his most recent job was working at Newell Coach in North Miami, Oklahoma
until he retired to draw disability.
Butch was preceded in death by
his parents and a sister Joyce “Knox” Reich.
Other survivors include: A
daughter, Shannon “Knox” White of Miami and her husband, Jeff White and a
grandson, Heath White and his spouse, Tiffany and two great grand children,
Hunter and Drake White and 3 brothers, James T Knox of Mounds City, Kansas and
Ed Knox of Miami and Clarence Knox of Commerce and also survived by several
nieces and nephews. He is also survived
by a wife and a son of Vinita, Oklahoma.
He was cremated and no services
were held by Luginbuel Funeral Home of Vinita, Oklahoma.
